The title says it all. I am like a new born babe, with eyes brand new and smile on my face. Last Friday night was both one of the scariest and most joyous moments of my life. It's not often in a person's life that you can say that with as much conviction as I'm saying it now.
My life had reached a turning point. The choice was either to stay on the road I had found myself, or to turn around for something better. I chose the latter.
At the evening's end, I had rededicated my life to Christ.
While there's still a twinge of sorrow at my foolishness for not having chosen this earlier, I am filled with joy at the hope of tomorrow and what God has in store for me. Or rather, what I may do for God. I've had too many discoveries as of late that show how much I've traveled since the beginning of college. Some of them good, some of them bad, some of them merely inevitable. While in some arenas of my life I'm saddened at the loss of what was once childlike faith. While on the other hand, it is now so evident my grace needs to be so sufficient that I can have no doubt of the need for my Saviour.
As a child, I always knew I learned best by experience. My mother would probably attest to this ;) And by experience, that also means failure. While I hope that I have grown in being able to take heed of other people's experience, I know my tendency still remains in the lessons where I find (or experience) the answers myself.
While my newly lit fire kindles with its youthful vigor :), I am continuing my journey but with newer, better priorities. I would be amiss if I didn't thank those who have given themselves to the Lord and have listened to the Holy Spirit, even when they didn't know themselves the end of their actions. It has been instrumental in my journey back to the Lord. Of the things I've learned, I hope to bring this kind of wonderful surrender to my life. I am like Him, for He is in me. So He is in me, so I am led by Him. May God be evident in all that I do.
"He does not deal with us according to our sins, nor repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His steadfast love towards those who fear Him." ~ Psalm 103:10-11
